I spent this morning writing a job application, which was dull and tedious (all the more so because on current form I’m not remotely confident of even getting an interview), but at least I got it done by lunchtime and had the afternoon to do fun things.
I made a new and improved case for my phone, with penguin-print fabric and a tab and popper to fasten it rather than elastic and button.
(The tab is a little bit wonky, and the perfectionist in me is rather disappointed and wants to declare it a failure, but the pragmatist in me says it’s fine, and I can always claim it’s deliberatly asymmetrical, and PENGUINS, and lalalala SHUT UP PERFECTIONIST I CAN’T HEAR YOU.)
And then I went for a walk, and saw a lovely butterfly.
And, more importantly, I picked 250 grams of blackberries, so there will be blackberry and apple crumble tonight.
And yet…I can do all the fun, relaxing things I can squeeze into the days, and I can be feeling better than I have done in years (and I am, truly), but that still doesn’t make me OK. Getting over a breakdown (and I think reaching the stage where you can’t get through a day at work without crying and have become convinced that people are out to get you counts as a breakdown) is hard, especially when the professional help available is more or less the equivalent of telling someone with a broken leg to rest and not put too much weight on it for a while, rather than re-setting the bone and fitting a cast and offering physio to help regain a normal range of movement. So I still have moments of feeling very low, I get tired very easily, and I’m worried about what the future holds. The days have got noticeably shorter recently, the weather is cooler, and even though autumn is my favourite season I’m worried about how I’ll cope with another winter. I’m applying for jobs, but I’m worried that I won’t get another job and will have to go back to the stressful job that was a major factor in the current bout of mental ill-health, or that I will get a new job and find that I can’t cope with that, and then I don’t know what I’ll do.
I’m not a huge fan of classic triangular shawls – I’ve found that crescents or semi-circles or long shallow triangles are easier to wear – but as I am a huge fan of knitalongs I couldn’t resist when it was announced that there would be a knitalong of the Dear Green Shawl in aid of P/hop, timed to coincide with the Commonwealth Games in Glasgow.
The Dear Green Shawl was a prizewinning entry in the design competition at the Glasgow School of Yarn a couple of years ago, and the lace motifs are based on the legend of St Mungo which is commemorated in the city’s coat of arms. The pattern has three sizes, the smallest of which is a shawlette designed to be made out of one skein of sock yarn, and I had a skein of merino/bamboo 4-ply in “Bitter Bug” from Old Maiden Aunt (who is based in West Kilbride, not far from Glasgow) which had been in stash for several years and which I thought would be perfect for it, so while I wasn’t sure I could knit a shawl in ten days I cast on on the morning of day the Games started and knitted away.
As you may be able to work out from the fact that the lower edge of the shawl is purple rather than green, it wasn’t all plain sailing; by the time I got to the bell motifs I was definitely running low enough on yarn to be rather worried. So, being the Excel geek that I am, I put together a spreadsheet of total stitches per row and worked out that I had 38% of the total left to knit…which was a bit of a problem given that I only had 20g of my yarn left! Happily, a bit of browsing on the Old Maiden Aunt site and a Twitter conversation with Lilith asking for her advice on how she thought the colours would look together later and a skein of the merino/bamboo in “Pretty Floral Bonnet” was on its way to me. I switched to the new colour at the start of the fishtail edging and I actually really like how it looks – I think it’s more interesting than a plain shawl would have been. And I did manange to finish on the Sunday when the Commonwealth Games ended, though it’s taken a couple more weeks to get it blocked and photographed.
It’s a pretty shawl, and a fairly straightforward knit, but a lot of people in the knitalong had similar issues with running out of yarn so I would suggest anyone else planning to make it would do well to have a spare skein to hand – I did knit it on 4mm needles rather than the suggested 3.75mm, because the yarn was quite plump for a 4-ply, and my yarn was only 400 yards to 100g rather than 400m, but I ended up using 468m of yarn and I don’t think I would have got away with one skein even on the smaller needles.
I haven’t been taking outfit photos much lately, and the last few times I have done I’ve then found that I couldn’t be bothered to actually blog about them. I find summer dressing pretty uninspiring at the best of times, and my interest in clothes and my appearance pretty much vanished during the bout of depression I was struggling with earlier this year. To be honest, it still hasn’t really returned, even though I’d say that generally not only do I feel happier than I did a few months ago, I feel happier than I have done for about three years; clothes just don’t seem that exciting right now.
On the other hand, I did like the way my orange jacket worked with the blue skirt and green top I’d put on today. I was going to wear a cobalt blue jacket, given that it has now got cool enough to want a jacket outdoors, but it was too close in colour to the skirt and yet not close enough and just looked sloppy, and my beige jacket is in the wash, so I tried the orange and was pleasantly surprised.
I still feel very uninspired, though. And I miss the outfit blogs I used to get inspiration from; seeing how other women put interesting outfits together often seemed to spark me into thinking up new ways to use my clothes, but there don’t seem to be any everyday outfit blogs around any more, only fashion blogs. I do wonder if my interest in clothes will come back at all, or if it’s gone the way of my interest in food which pretty much disappeared in the last major bout of depression a few years back…
I got a new phone several months ago. It’s taller and narrower than my old phone was so alas, the penguin case I made for my old phone didn’t quite fit, and I’ve been meaning to make a new case for it for months. I finally got round to it this afternoon.
I used the same fabrics as I did for the pencil case I made earlier this year. That seemed like a good idea, given that I do like the combination of fabrics, but now I think maybe it’s a bit too matchy.
The case is a very snug fit anyway, because I based it on the listed dimensions of my phone and failed to allow for the fact that I have a clip-on case on mine. So I might see if I can find some different fabric and make a second one. I think I’d also prefer a fabric tab with a bit of Velcro or maybe a popper or even a magnetic snap (or would a magnetic snap cause my phone to go loopy?) to the elastic and button.
Actually, I’m finding that I quite enjoy making cases and project bags. They’re much quicker and less fiddly than clothes, so less daunting if I just want to spend an hour or so sewing at the weekend. The only trouble is, I already have so many project bags, and there are only so many things in my house that I can make cases for without turning into Crazy Cozy Woman. I have been idly toying with the idea of setting up an Etsy shop but then again, I’m not convinced that I’m good enough to make things to sell yet…
It seems to have been quite a while since I last posted here, though I have been knitting away. (I haven’t touched my spinning wheel since the end of the Tour de Fleece, though – must rectify that tomorrow – and I seem to have lost interest in sewing again. Apparently sewing is something I get into every spring and fall out of love with again come July. And I haven’t been taking outfit photos because I’m bored of my summer clothes and can’t wear handknits when it’s this warm and am longing for boot weather again.)
I finished my latest pair of socks this week: Rachel Coopey’s Pavilion socks.
This pattern was released in June as a mystery knitalong, but but the time I cast on in mid-June all the clues had already been released (I was going to start earlier, but wanted to finish the socks I was working on first). The yarn is Twistle, a now-discontinued high-twist wool/nylon sock yarn from The Yarn Yard. I love the rich colour and the way the cables pop in it.
I wish I could say that I really enjoyed knitting these socks, but I didn’t. It’s nothing to do with the pattern, which is complicated enough to be an interesting knit but never too complicated to knit on the bus, and is awfully pretty to boot. Nor is it anything to do with the yarn. No, the problem was that I decided to knit these socks on a KnitPro Karbonz circular needle I’d bought to try out, and I hated knitting with it. The carbon-fibre needles have metal tips at the points, and I found that the contrast between the slippery metal and the grabbier carbon fibre made every. single. stitch feel as though it was catching as it slid between the two, which was somewhat maddening and stopped me getting into the flow of the knitting. And then, one morning when I was knitting on the bus, this happened:
One of the metal tips popped right off! On that occasion I managed to retrieve the tip from the floor of the bus and pop it back onto the needle; I carried on using them as I was worried about my gauge changing if I switched to different needles, but I wasn’t so lucky the second time it happened, just after I’d started the toe decreases on the second sock, when I couldn’t find the tip at all and ended up spending the rest of the working day without access to knitting before coming home and switching to different needles (and it felt to nice to be knitting without that little “catch” every stitch). So the broken Karbonz needle has gone in the bin and I don’t think I’ll be buying any more. I’ll stick to my wooden KnitPro sock needles in future!
Given that the fabulous photos posted during last year’s Tour de Fleece were one of the things that convinced me to start spinning, I was looking forward to joining in this year’s myself. I haven’t managed to spin every day, due to being away last weekend and sometimes too tired or late home on a worknight to fit any spinning in, but I have definitely spun more than I normally would and have spun half of a braid of rainbow gradient BFL from The Yarn Yard:
I started the second half today:
I’m not going to finish by next Sunday, but that’s OK. And I think it will be lovely when it’s done and plied up.
I’ve also been doing some Tour related sewing; I’m spinning along with the Archers Listeners group on Ravelry and there are prizes awarded each week to people who’ve posted their progress pictures (I won a big bag of raw alpaca fleece last week – I’m not quite sure what I’m going to do with it, but I think I’ll have fun finding out!). I offered a handmade project bag as a prize, and actually got round to making it today so it can go off to its new home tomorrow.
I used this tutorial, which I’ve used before, though I made the outside all one fabric and cut a paper template 30cm tall by 27cm wide for all the pieces. I thought the bicycle print fabric was appropriate!
It’s lined in pale blue, though you can’t really see that in the pictures, and rather than sewing fabric ties I used blue and white spotted grosgrain ribbon. I’m quite pleased with how it turned out and I hope its new owner likes it!
Today was definitely the kind of day when the only sensible clothing strategy was to wear loose lightweight woven garments, and as few of those as possible.
Linen dress, sandals, done. Even if the dress did already look wrinkled at a quarter to seven in the morning when I took this picture (that’ll be because you never iron things – Ed.).